Have you ever thought about stopping complaining and doing what you can to change it? Your negativity may be sinking you in a sea of depressive lamentations, and thus attracting the heavy energies where you have settled in, and from where you feel sorry for yourself. Only you can change all of this, it's a matter of courage and decision to get out of the deep hole you've been in.
Are you feeling powerless?
Admit it, and don't be ashamed or afraid to ask for help. Those you trust and love will be happy to have the chance to help you. Start today to write your new life story with more positivity.
Know that to deserve the miracles that the universe can bring, you need to connect with your own soul. So remember God, for it was not he who abandoned you, it was you who denied his existence. But if you allow it, you will have proof of its reality in your life, because only your faith in connection with your spirituality (in whatever way that suits you) will give you strength to fight against the evil that is within you, and to get out of the abyss in which you are falling into.
Learn to be lighter, and don't over think. Start changing your bad habits slowly, cleanse your soul of the deleterious energies you have attracted.
Life is made of choices, and the best choice to make now is to walk out of this dark night of the soul by having the courage to light it up with what is beautiful, positive, good and the healthiest things in life.
Decide to be happy, there is a world of opportunities waiting for your first steps.